I just handed over my little baby Ace, eyes spilling over great big crocodile tears.. hands stretched out reaching back for me, to the doctor about to perform a surgery on him at Primary Children’s Hospital. My mama heart is aching. I feel so helpless sitting in the waiting room while strangers are cutting into my little boy. It is such a simple procedure and I shouldn’t be overreacting the way that I am but I just can’t stop think about how fragile life is.
One moment, one breath, one decision.. can change your life forever. That’s all it takes. Life is SO fragile. I’ve heard so many heart breaking stories about loss. Loss of a child. A father. A friend. A spouse. There is no worse pain in the world than missing someone. I wish there was a way to avoid this feeling completely but it is inevitable. Horrible things happen. Loved ones are ripped away. And we’re left with the decision of how we will be affected by this loss. Grow or crumble. And gosh.. it’s so easy to crumble. I’ve been there with the loss of my Dad what I was 17. But I promise to rise above, learn, and to grow is the hardest and best decision you will ever make.
My little Ace will be fine. Totally fine. Even Better than before actually! But my thoughts won’t turn off as I think of all you mothers who’s babies rest in the nicu. For all you parents handing over your child for a life saving surgery. For all of you who put all of your trust and your whole hearts in the hands of doctors. You are incredible. My hat’s off to you.
Squeeze your loved ones a little tighter today. We never know how one second can change our lives forever.